U'Smile

U'Smile

Tuesday 13 October 2015

SIP - 10

Playlist got updated along with songs of the upcoming films. And the satisfied customer count kept on increasing proportional to the development of the cafe's infrastructure. The angel got a plan of introducing a library- a cafe library for spreading the interest among the people in reading books. She had a plan of having only story books, nothing like any biographies or encyclopedias or year book. It was a day of sun, he smiled so elegantly on the world beneath it. If it was a few days back she would have gone mad on his late arrival. But now, she knows whatever the time maybe he will show his presence anyhow. She anticipated that their relationship is absolutely beyond friendship. Still she couldn’t get the guts to ask for his mobile number. Meanwhile when she was gradually increasing the strength to ask for it, he arrived. 

With a wide spreading smile and a wave of his hand he approached her. Behind them followed a couple, the guy opening the door and leaving space for the girl to enter. In a few moments she found that they are not alone, a gang of people were following them, the family members of both of them (probably). She quickly called her angel and said,"Hey yaar! come here. quickly. You see there a couple. So they are going to be my story today". With an amusement he asked "What made you choose them?". Giggles popping out of her she said,"No factor is needed. It's just a flick of thought." continuing her pause he asked her"Fine. so what's their story now?". She could find the same sense of excitement in him also.
"Okay my partner. Let me know who they are".

Within a couple of moments she noticed that it is going be an arranged marriage between the girl and the guy.
"Fine yaar. So with her looks it's visible that she is an example of the phrase 'bold and beautiful' and from his behavior, he is much impressed by her. And their names....." as she was saying this, the girl's mother called the girl by the name Mithra and in turn the mother of the guy called him as Raghav. "See, this is how the world helps me to go on with my imaginative skill." said the cafe girl proudly.
"Ok lemme carry on with the past...here you go my partner..."
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If I were Mithra...it would be...it should be...

"So here I am not because I blindly follow my parent's words, but that I respect them."
"Yah even I respect my parents Ms.Mithra" he said with a smile not too wide and not too short.
I noticed all the actions of him towards me. Listing them out here:
1. He was the one who came earlier.
2. He didn't call many times and rushed me.
3. He opened the door when I was about to enter the cafe.
4. Above all he liked me.
"Well..there are 5 questions I would like to post to you."
"That's not a problem Mithra, you can even ask more."
"Not at all needed Mr.Ragav. That would suffice."
Again with a smile he welcomed the questions from me.
(Question 1)
Would you mind if I go for work when I'm carrying and after giving birth to baby?
(Answer 1)
That would matter to me. Because, your health and the baby's health is very important. Maybe at least for a year you can be at home. After that you can continue as our lifestyle needs it.
(Observation)
Practical answer instead of turning the tables to my side(as of now).
(Question 2)
What will you do when you happened to see a gang of idiots harassing a girl in the road?
After a sigh he answered.
(Answer)
It depends. It depends on the way how I am. If I have my friends around, I will fight with them and relieve her. If not I can’t help her.

“What behavior is that Mister?. Fine. Will you do the same if I’m that girl?”

He didn’t utter a word. He couldn’t answer anything. I said, “Okay. Let me pose the next question”.
(Observation)
Coward. I have to give a thought.
(Question 3)
Do you have any love affairs in the past?
(Answer)
To be frank, I had one. But it was not on double side. I loved her. And there’s nothing deep about it. And one more thing. Even you might had one. But it doesn’t matter to me, once you are over it. Only your present and future is more important to me in this case”.
(Observation)
Practical.

(Question 4)
Which one do you prefer HP movie or Novel?
(Answer)
Who wastes time in books? It’s obvious..Movie.
 “Oh! But you won’t get the entire feel of that in movie than in books right”
“No time na.”
He giggled. But I didn’t.
(observation)
A person who spends time for books is the one who finds time for relationships. This is my opinion.

(Question 5)
What’s your goal in life?
(Answer)
It evolves. I don’t plan anything.

“Oh! Okay. That’s it”
 “But may I know your answer please. I would like to know it before you say it your parents”
“Yeah sure. See there should be atleast minimum things that we should have in common. Only then the life will be good. But it’s not so here. So am sorry. I don’t think so we will make a good pair.”
“Mithra. Why do you feel so? Do we have that much difference of opinions?”
“Yah. You won’t even rise your voice for me if am in trouble. Security is something a girl expects from a guy. And when you don’t even find time for reading 2 pages a day, when will you spare your time for the family? And see you don’t have stable plans about your life. No plans, no stability”.
I stood up to leave. But he didn’t.
“1 minute Mithra. I have something else to say. I got two goals to do in my life from now on. Can you listen to it?”
"But you have already answered it"
"I said it evolves"
With no interest I listened.
“1. I’m gonna join Gym so that I can protect my wife when some idiots harass her.
 2. I’m going to spend atleast half an hour to flip pages of books.”
I stood there speechless. No one can say “I love you” more implicitly than this way, I felt.
A silent smile peeped from my lips as a sign of “Yes”.
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“Miss…you are amazing. How come you are doing this? I’m impressed.”
“Thank you yaar!..its an inborn talent.”
I went on to get order from the gang. I saw him noticing me and kept the smile left with him.
Once I returned, he had left a note in the tissue saying, “This is not the first time you are impressing me!..Bye angel”.





Writing so she closed her diary…… 

Tuesday 25 August 2015

SIP - 9(B)

"Hello madam! Am so sorry. Hello are you here?" said a voice that brought me back to my senses.
It was him. Without a moment of delay she jumped over him in anger. "Why did you come now?. You could have stayed at home na. See I have changed my clothes too."
He admired the way she talked and complained like a kid. "Sorry Angel. I know it's my fault. I'm sorry."
"No. You belittle me. That's why you didn't turn up."
He held her face in his palm "If I don't value you, why should I come here even after the sun is shining brightly? I could have met you tomorrow right?"
That's it. She fell for him again. Some magic happened.
"So what was it you didn't even see me entering inside? You were busy on something else? Your own fantasy world?"
"Yes...come here..first let's have a place to talk.."
"I will tell you a secret about me. You should not tell anyone.Promise?"
"Yeah! Promise. So the chamber of secrets is gonna open again. Let me see.."
"Ha Ha!! okay..here you go. I have a power of creating my own mind palace and live in it..."
She started narrating him each and every story she penned on her diary till that day's story.
"So what happened when you proposed Sid. I mean, when nithi proposed?"
"No problem you can say it as me. mmm...Let me think. Just listen."
She closed her eyes and continued the story.
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After I proposed him he said "Nithi. I need time. I can't tell you anything now. I have responsibilities. after she left, I haven't thought anyone like that. Even with you, I couldn't describe the feel.It's not that I can't see you in that way, but it is that I haven't seen you in that way. Sorry!"
I thought that would be the moment I could finally talk with Sid. But he said "Till I give you any answer, will stay as my friend?"
"I will"
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She opened her eyes. He understood that the current situation is the continuation for that story.
"Then?"
"Then what. They both were friends. And now he himself fell in love with her and thus proposed."
"Awesome! such a creativity you have. Hats-off angel!. Can I ask you something?"
"Yes."
"Can I join you in your world of day dreaming? Can I be a character in your story?"
In a moment she replied positively.

The coffee was served to both and the sip was made.

Writing so she closed her diary....



Unknowingly she almost let some other person to enter between her and her one and only friend, the diary. There it started. Everything that is going to change her life. 

SIP -9 (A)

The winter has gone. Just in terms of season and not in any other way. It was the period where the scoop of ice-cream melts with the swipe of rays for five minutes. It was already fifteen past seven. The cafe didn't get the touch of his feet yet. Even the first song in her favorite playlist didn't seem to please her that day. She found herself funny for waiting for him with her suite on. She felt crazy actually for crossing over someone whom she know for just a couple of days. With the ticks of the clock, her disappointment went up and interest went down. She knows the reality light that life is a giant wheel and there are ups and downs. But still she couldn't resist herself in this case for being or acting like a child. After waiting to bloom in the garden of love for forty minutes, she came back to her real role of the cafe girl. She was lost in thoughts wondering how he has changed her to forget her own fantasy world where she will enact any role, fit herself in any situation and scripting her own climax. She concluded that, that was her real place.

Meanwhile she noticed three people already sitting in her land. A girl and two guys. The girl with a casual pony and jumpsuit with a smile which seemed to hang on her lips anytime. The guy sitting next to her is a fatso and type of charming. The other on the opposite side was also handsome with a professional look. It was like the girl and the fatso has been dragged from their comforting bed without their will.
"Hey buddy! what do you think about me?" asked the professional guy.
"Have you met with any accident? Or you undergone any failure operation on your bloody head?" like a volcano he fumed. The female part was enjoying the conversation.
"Come on man. Say na. What do you think about me?"
"Daddy...seriously..he has gone mad. Arey sid what's that?"
Obviously that fatso is not her daddy, maybe it is their way of addressing.
"Just answer my question." sudden seriousness spreaded there. "Okay..if you ask me, I would say you are a burden to the mother Earth, boasting filthy guy with no bad habits except that you talk a lot. And..."
"Enough...you are developing a false report. Fine. How am I to other girls?"
"Truth or False?" asked the big guy with a mocking smile. After the panel member posed an angry look he said, "I have seen many girls talking to you but they may have some other thought in their mind but not you. Is this okay? you satisfied?" saying so he gave a hi-fi to the girl.
"So...you say I'm a decent and responsible guy right?"
With a serious note but kidding expression he said "Yes Mr.Sidharth. But why are you asking me like this in such morning?".
"Well as you agreed with my character, do you have any issue in granting your daughter's hand to me?"
Taken back. Even I was thrown back when I watched that scene. "What!!!!!!!!! You are in love with my baby? my nithi???"
"Ah...a small correction..my nithi.."
"Arey. when did all this happen?"
"It happens man. That's love."
Then Sid kneeled down,"Mr.Raki, will you accept me as your be-loved son-in-law?"
Raki also gave his hand as a symbol of agreeing to his proposal. "My dear sidharth, I accept you as my son-in-law and I'm sure you are the best bridegroom for my daughter".
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If I were nithi...it would be...it should be...

"I don't know what to say sri. I couldn't define what feel I have for Sidharth. I know he is our senior, but that is not making me to stay away from him or confine me within the boundary. The love and care I have for him...I don't know sri."
"Nithi..you know that he is committed to another girl, right?"
This is the only point Sri has in opposing my love for Sid. Yes I know he is committed so what? is there any protocol that one should not love someone who has feeling for another. No. It is my life and it's my rule.
"Yeah Sri. I know it. But it's his past. He broke up with her long ago. And you also know about me right? My past? my love for someone which went in vain. My concern for someone who didn't even value it. But this..this is something different. It lifts me up Sri. I feel like no one can look after Sid like me. Even that girl."
"Baby...Try to understand. He should first overcome from that pain. Only then..."
"Only then he can love me. Is it?...What is this Sri.."
"Okay. Promise me one thing. If I allow you to propose him, you should not pester him about this. Leave the result to him. If he feels the same with you anytime, let him come to you, Fine?"
I paused for a minute."In between no communication?" I asked with a hesitation.
"No. Nothing."
"What if he continues to talk to me as before, like a friend?"
"Then there's no problem. You can talk. But you should not initiate."
The swish of the beach wind was clear that moment. We both maintained silence. I couldn't give any other thought except that I want to tell him.
"Promise Sri. I agree to what you say."
"What if you crossed the agreement?"
"I will never ever go back to him. Okay now?"
She smiled. "Okay dear. Don't get harsh on me. I'm saying it for your sake. I can't see my friend regretting for the rest of her life. Please understand."
I agreed.



Friday 14 August 2015

SIP -8

With love comes happiness and brightness in life and face of women proves true again with the cafe girl's case. She thought of changing her personal diary's name from "Dear Diary" to "Tiara". As she could somehow sense that there after it won't be her regular life with all fantasy and cooked up stories in her everyday. Finding it a perfect name, she combed her hair and brought all the golden streaks to a pony. From all other days, she found herself standing in front of that piece of truth teller for a long time twisting and turning to check herself for perfection in her makeover. Once all the checkboxes are done, she peeped out to make sure that he was not there. With a sigh she rolled over the window screens. It was her daily work to roll up the screens, but then she admired it the way the non-living material moving up with the strings dropping down. Unreasonable joy filled her heart. She wanted to greet everyone she found on the road. She wanted to push herself into the sky by thrushing the ground. She chose her favourite playlist without minding the people's choice. And the player, obeying her commands started playing the song with 'Un vizhigalil vizhundha naal mudhal...'
Hoping and jumping I reached the door to see the prince's entry, we both dashed with each other with an "Ouch!".
"Sorry...Sorry...Was that hard? Sorry angel.."
Rubbing my head slightly as if it was not painfull I said "Nah nah...chill..am okay"
"May I know why is that we always meet with a fall or hit?.. Madam did you make any jinx?"
But in my perspective it was not me who made jinx,it was him who made it on me. With a fairy smile, I mentioned him about his reason for the visit there.
"Oh yeah. Am ready. Are you?". After scanning me from tip to toe he grabbed my hand saying "You seem ready to enter the fitness world. Good! Chalo.." I had to take that much effort to disclose the skip of my heart beat when his hand touched mine.
"Since it's the first day, we can have a 20 minutes jog and 10 minutes walk. Gradually we can increase the speed and time. Is that okay for you miss?"
I gave my usual nod as yes. In the 20 minutes there was no sharing of words between us. Their jog and behaviour was like the soldiers in the training session. It was not because he maintained silence. It was me. I couldn't give a chance for my mind to think about either who came along with me or what I was doing then. It was the nature which made my twin sister parts (heart and mind) to get locked to it. I wondered why have I missed these beauties of God and got myself caged in the cafe. Breaking the amusement, he said "Let's do one thing. From tomorrow bring me an I-Pod or shuffle. Because it's hard for me to keep my mouth shut.I usually bring it and keep humming when I come alone. Thinking that today I got someone to accompany me and it would not be a good approach to bring one and disrespect the other. So don't forget. Okay." This came out with a grin.
OMG! I forgot this angel beside me. "OOPS..Sorry yaar.  I dived into the biological ocean, watching the dance of trees and flowers. So am here. Lets talk." saying so I waited for his reply. But there was none.
There was no conversation until the 20 minutes got over. At that 21st minute, "lets walk for 10 minutes check the time".It was 7-21-01 and we would stop our fitness session by 7-30-00. By the time when we were walking I could see that I have never been to that pathway ever before. With some trust I followed him. Actually it was a shortcut to my cafe and I realised it only by 7-29-40. Exactly by 7-30-00 we reached our cafe.
After the 'Breathe-in ; Breathe-out' finally he spoke "Shall we talk for few minutes. If you like?"
"Come on yaar. We can. But where?"
"Here in your cafe. Won't you let me in?"
We sat on the same table where we first had our conversation. From that table the entire scenario can be observed. But no one can note what is happening here.
"So Alice, what is that you enjoying the nature as if an alien entering into Earth for the first time?"
I liked him calling me like that. "Why do you call me like that. That's not my name."
"Yeah I know. But let it be. You can recognize that I'm talking to you na. Then it's fine. Is that a problem for you?"
"So even I can do the same right?". He shrugged as a positive reply. "Lemme go and order for 2 lemon teas. Just a minute." But  I took the track first and said "This is my turn. I'll order."
After few minutes we were sitting there with the cups in our hand. "So what's your interest?"
"Sorry. Interest? a what?"
"Arrghh..Why do you make it more formal? a big no to sorry, please and thanks..If you want to say any of these,say "I love you"."
I was stunned with what he said now. "What?!!"
"Arey...chill. Just to make you not say any of these I told like that. Don't panic."
We both chuckled. "mmm... I love to spend time with books, music and to live in my own fantasy world."
"Wow..that's cool. so I have a writer with me uh..."
"When did I say I write. I just dream"
"That's what all the writers do before getting their stuff into papers. You are just 1 step behind that role. All the best for your Best sellers try!"
"Ha ha.. thank you anyway. So that's it. What do you do? Who is that sitting behind the white coat and steth?"
"Me? I just.. I just go around places and I cook". I laughed. It was actually humiliating as he didn't encourage it. "What? what's wrong in it?"
I could feel that the next moment can become worse if I talk anything stupidly. So I was cautious in my words. "Nothing Hatter.so what's the specialty in your cooking? Which style do you prefer?"
A silent smile was  there as soon as he heard the word 'hatter'. "Hmmm... my special type is Chinese and continental. Are you a good eater?".
"I just love eating. Anytype it can be. My plate will be clean. Try me with your dishes."
"Sure Elsa. Very soon. Get ready for it!"
Our cups were empty. Still both of us were not in a mood to let others to sit in that place. I can tell from the song playing that it would be 46th song from my playlist.
"Indru netru naalai [Today Yesterday Tomorrow]
Endrum nee en dhevadhai [You are my angel forever]
kadhal seiyum maayai [It is love's magic]
En vaanam engum poomazhai..." [That my sky showers me with flower]
Yes it is true... Love can do magic that our eyes neither ignore nor throw hatred. Maybe this is love at first sight. But I'm not a type of girl who believes in this category of love. Then I redirected all my upcoming questions to time saying, "Leave everything to time. It will find you an answer".


Writing so she closed her diary...

Thursday 30 July 2015

Sip - 7

Still not taken back from last day's dream, the cafe girl started her daily routine as usual that morning. She didn't know that she is going to cherish the dream, her love dream in few minutes. That was not a bang, it was a gentle entry and she didn't notice it. "Excuse me Angel." She turned towards the direction of the voice and was stunned. It was her angel. Spontaneously, like the melting of a dew drop on the arrival of sun, she fainted on just look at him. He held her like an involuntary action. Though she was in a semi-conscious state she could feel his touch. As if a rose petal is given to a flower lover, he held her with some caution. She admired it.
Not like the last incident, she came to her sense earlier and read through the happening quickly.
"Hi angel! what was that? Is it a yoga exercise that you forget everyday and I'm a reminder for it. ha ha ha" Even his laughter got that manliness.
"Ha ha.. no nothing like that. Am sorry that am doing this everytime before you." I felt like a child who would look here and there when it fell down on the ground.
"Excuse me. Sorry to me? Hello madam come on. There's nothing to do with me. Take care of your health. You are too weak. Being a doctor I would suggest you.."
"What, you are a doctor? "
"What??? "
"ahem.. nah nah. But you don't seem like one."
"Madam, So if I wear a specs, white coat and a steth will you believe me?"
"Oops. Sorry I didn't mean in that way."
"Then what. Why is that people always say this kind of thing 'Oh! you don't seem like a muslim' ; 'Oh! you don't seem like an uneducated man'...crap..."
But I threw my laughter for his imitation like a girl. While I was laughing...
"By the way, I will say this 'You too don't look like a cafe girl. You are like someone who has born for some other reason.'"
Saying so he paused for a moment and looked into my eyes.  Straight look. As if he was saying through his eyes, and as if I understood it, I nodded my head like a cute puppy. In the next second, "Reason? what reason do you think?" the question was posed to him.
He stumbled in his words. Gathering something from his vocabulary, "I don't know. Actually I can't say it with just 2 sips of coffee. I need time. Will you permit me Ms.Heavenly angel?"
OMG! I'm flattered. He wants to spend time with me. And he moved the coins slowly, fascinating me, getting my acceptance.
"Yah permitted. By the way, what is that advice on my diet Doc?"
"Yah.. coming to the point. I can't suggest you that here, in this place, in a cafe. I respect my profession."
"So do you want me to visit your hospital as a patient Doc?"
"Not necessary. You need to walk for atleast...hmmm...maybe a kilometre daily."
"Okay. What does that mean?"
"And I will accompany you. Shall we start it today?"
"Sure"
Saying so, we both got up and I asked for a minute for getting into my track suit. After that the road, in which I used to walk fantasying my own world, alone, was gone forever. This journey, I know, would change my life completely.
Writing so she closed her dairy...
But the question is in which way???

Tuesday 30 June 2015

SIP - 6

The lyrics of JB's song was in sync with my lips. It was neither a chill nor a sweaty morning. It's warm day with the rejoice of something in her heart. She sensed an indescribable joy and some kind of ESP within her saying that someone who is heavenly going to meet her. With the flash of the thought he entered the cafe. A gray tracks matching the pale green T-shirt and a clumsy wet hair which will be the best looking when dried and combed. Just with a look it was seen that he jogged a minute ago. He took the third table which was not under my section and drowned into the 'NewsDay'. The girl who is in-charge of that table got the order from him which is Espressino. A glance at me, she felt like she lived an era with him. The time was like the time to flip a coin, but she could see the days she spent with him, the words she shared with him and in simple the love he gifted her.

"Excuse me mam. How much is it?"It almost took few seconds to get back her to this world. "Mam.." he knocked the deck.
"oh!Sorry sir. It's 80 bucks". He threw looks as if he could read the thoughts of her,those things that started creeping inside her.
Closing the door the final peek at her, nothing was visible to her.Everything was blank...dark...peaceful...

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If it was me..sorry he is mine...it would be...it will be...

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"Can you hear us??? hey...wake up..." my dear co-workers woke me up from my gudiness. I was not happy for waking up. I was angry at them for making me wake up from the most beautiful dream in my life.
 "yah! I'm normal. No worries. Chill!" saying so I asked them to move away.

Once everyone spaced from me, I saw the same soul that touched me. But this time it is nearing me. "Hey angel. Are you okay?".

Fascinated I am. My breath was pumped out totally. My words cheated me. Whom to blame..ha ha..I was having no consciousness a moment ago and now if I badly want to speak, how can I.
Still, I want to. He lifted me by holding my hands gently. The touch was so caring like a mother who hold her child's hand tenderly.
 "Yes I am" I said gaining the left over energy somewhere in my body.
"You look so weak. Come on have something."
"No. I'll be fine. No problem."
"How can you be? I'll order for you.What do you want?"
OMG! he is asking me what I want. It was actually it was his love I want. "Nothing"
"You won't listen to my words. I'll order by myself."
I stopped him. "I'll do that. Aadhira, get me some lime juice please."I said though I like him taking order for me. That's hat every girl like,her man taking effort to make her feel like princess. I was served with the U'Smile's lime juice.

 Me taking the first sip, he said "so you are working here since?".
"No I own this cafe actually. I didn't want to sit ideally at home. so I'm being an employee here."
"Oh! that's good." He really seemed to be impressed.
"So Miss.Owner, you are such a workaholic that you didn't even have your breakfast?"he giggled a bit. Like a baby, for me.

 "No.It's not because of it I guess."
"Then?" He waited for an answer. But I wasn't ready to tell him the real one."Don't know"with a blush I looked down. Where does this blush thing come to me? I'm not that type anyway.

"ha ha..okay..Miss.Angel" Oh! it was Owner and it's Angel now.Cool.

"I think I can leave now.I have to. So..catch you later. Take care Angel"

He completed his sentence. But his eyes didn't stop staying words. He left the place without taking away his heart from me, which he has given me now. Then came a guy with a worried look on his face. Sitting opposite to the third table, He asked me "Hi..1 cappuccino please."

 I went and served him with that. I know he had a story behind. But by then, it was not the actual me who wanders in her own world. By then it was not me who has my own story to imagine.


All because it was love.

Writing so, she closed her diary.....

Wednesday 24 June 2015

SIP - 5

The rays of sunshine tenderly touched the door of the cafe. The warmth it had spread was like of
the mother's.Just the look of her turned the ambiance to a city life. She was dressed in a very formal way, with Jazzy Ben white shirt and a grey zovi cotton pants. Highly raised pony and perfect make-up displayed her as a bold and beautiful woman. Ordering for a hot chocolate,she was calling someone in her mobile. The time when she was served, a guy who can match her in all ways entered and sat in front of her. The angel couldn't even guess what the scenario could be. Patiently the lady started the conversation.She handed over him a letter thing."Oh!! cool. You got selected.Congrats!. I didn't even think that the company's standard has come this low."saying so, he gave a sarcastic smile. "Oh..so now the company's standard has gone low. Fine.". They shared cold looks.

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If it were the lady, it would be....it should be...

"Sana, Why is your selection always for third rated quality. You select anything only after checking the price tag?"

"Why Arjun doesn't this look good on me?"

"That's what I'm saying."

She looked her dress again with a doubt. It was her favorite costume among her collection. Besides being hurte, she talked with an excited note.

"Hey, I forgot tell you this Arjun. You know na, the guy from my team- Simon. He proposed me yesterday da. It was so romantic. A card and a dairy milk chocolate with a teddy bear. A big
sized one.Wow!! But I said no.Because I have you with me."

I'm very much proud to have him by my side. These kind of information are shared with him by me only to make him feel possessive on me. Whenever others ask me how could I manage with him with his dominating character, that doesn't seem like a domination on me. I see him as an angel in my life.

"Why did you say no?. You could have said yes. I still wonder how can guys are admiring girls like you and proposing"

"Why can't they? you are one such. Don't forget it."

"Yah. I do remember. That would be the mistake done by me."

The talk like this was usual with arjun. So I didn't consider it as a big deal. But that day, it was quite different.

"Mistake? oh!! mistake?? them why are you still staying? You can leave me. You have all the freedom."

Even when I was saying this I didn't loose my temper. But when he replied,"You are the one who is clinging to me. And why do you think your parents agreed to the marriage? It's because I earn more and I'm holding a decent designation.If they marry you to me, they can stay happy that their daughter is settled well."

The moment came where he pierced my family. I couldn't control me.

"What? What was that? It's not that in the whole world you are the one who is earning more.Even I'm getting a fair salary."

"Yes. You are earning a fair salary. But why do you think you are retained in your company. And specifically, in your team?. It's not because of your skill. It's only because of your look. You are not sound in your technical knowledge.Are you thinking like that baby?"

When he said that with a mordant smile. I feel like showing him what does slap mean. As my family taught me what manners is, I didn't do it.

"Enough is enough. Okay. So you say, I didn't get my job for my skill and ability. It's all because of looks right?".

"Exactly. You are sharp dear."

After a few moments of silence, just the waves showed its presence.

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"Did you see the package?"

"Yes. It is 2 lakhs per month."

"Nah.That's not what I asked.It is more than yours. And I hope you know that the company doesn't mind about the looks. Its completely because of my skill, my ability and finally my attitude."

He was angry. It was obvious from color change of his face to red. Still he tried to be normal.

"Okay Sana. So what? I don't value that difference. Does it for you? Anyhow we are going to get married and be in the same house."

"ha ha!!!" with a vihasita(gentle laughter)she said,"And yes. The next news for you is I'm calling off my marriage. I want someone in my life who respects me, values my love and takes me as such and definitely it's not you.Bye".

She stood up with a proud and paced towards me. "Here dear. Have this hot chocolate as my treat to you. Today I proved who I actually am."

There is a saying that 'There is a life after love failure'. But here, she found a life only because of the love. When he was about to leave, instead of her, the cafe girl went to him and said "Thank you".


                                                                                                         Writing so, she closed her diary.

SIP - 4

The blankets of white snow coated the sidewalks and was about to cover the porch of U'Smile. The angel was cleaning the pathway of her cafe when she noted a charming cute girl of 20 entering her cafe. Once she was done with her work and entered her heaven, she found the girl sitting without anything on her table. So the cafe girl approached her for getting the order.
"Hi mam! can I have the order please." The blink rate was faster than normal. She seemed to be tensed. "Am waiting for a person. I'll order later." She took her mobile and typed something. Confused with what's her situation the angel went back to her usual position behind the desk. Then came another girl a bit more cute than the first girl and had her seat. Just with the exchange of their looks it was seen that there was a cold war between them.
"Shruthi.." said the second girl but was  stopped by the loud words of the first girl
 "I should talk. Keep quite". With some kind of guilty feel she sat silently. The first girl continued, controlling the hatred
"What did I tell you when I left for my studies?. I asked you to be a good friend for him. Does it mean to take him away from me?. How could you do this to me?.  If you really considered me as a good friend, you would have informed me the moment you felt it. But you didn't. It's not he who betrayed me. It's you Sanju".
Since there was no one there in the cafe and also because of their silence, even the ticking of the watch was heard.
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If I were Sanju...it would be...it should be...

"I know what I'm saying is wrong and what I'm doing is the worst of all. Still I couldn't hide it from my heart Sanju. You yourself know it, how much I loved Shruthi. But at present it is in past tense. The way you care, the way you speak, the way you see me is taking me closer to you than to her. Please try to understand sanju. I love you."
"Just stop it Vishwa. It's absurd. I talked to you in a friendly manner. I cared for because Shruthi asked me to. She trusts me. You can betray her. But I can't."The roses in the garden were so romantic but
this doesn't suit the current situation. He has gone mad. Shruthi- She will do anything for him. She loved him and lived for him. What has made him to decide like this.
"I'm not betraying her. It was her. When I needed her she wasn't there to wipe my tears, she was not there to hold me in her palms, she was not there to comfort me in her arms. You were there. You consoled me when I was sad, when I felt blue. She didn't even had time to spend with me."
"How dare could you blame her for not being with you. It's you who asked her to pursue her dreams and said you will wait for her how long it can be. Only because of that she left. Even then with all her exams she came to meet you on your birthday. But you, you didn't even wished her on hers. Such a cheapo you are. Now you are saying that you love me. Okay just answer this. Just the distance for few years can kill your first love, anything can make your second love to change. What guarantee can you give me on
this?".

He was of no words. How could he! I shouldn't even stand at that place after listening to him this much."Don't ever get back to Shruthi again. I'll talk to her. Please..You don't worth her love. It's a sin to break a true love. And am feeling sorry for her blindly loving you."

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"Shruthi please. Listen to me. You believe what  he said and suspecting me?".

 "Only because of your proposal he is disturbed now. He want to stay away from me,thinking like a fool that it's because of his fault you got feelings for him.I don't want your friendship anymore Sanju. I lost him because of you."

Ending her friendship in that table she left her. She felt the tearing of heart for the love she is missing and not even gave a thought of how much it will hurt when friendship breaks.

After a few moments of inner mourning, sanju came to the angel to pay the bill.

"shruthi didn't realize it. Maybe one day she will understand the lose of this diamond and the real shade of that worthless metal and come back. Or might not."

"Whatever happens I'll not leave her. I can't let my angel to get into the hands of the dark." With all confidence Sanju bid bye to the cafe girl.



Not just love has feelings and pain. Even friendship does.
Writing so, she closed the diary.

Wednesday 17 June 2015

SIP - 3

From checking the notifications in facebook, the opening of the door and the voice of a cute little lad made her to see the new entry. It was a young lady with her five year old(maybe) son. She got to know that kid's name is Charan from his mom's call.He was very eager to open the wrapped thing which the lady was holding. The exhilaration in his movement made the cafe girl to check what is in it. As an act of getting the order from them,she neared them. By then he opened up the parcel. It contained many photos taken in some hill station which was obvious from the background in that photos. There stood this lady, this kid and a man wearing a combat dress(An army man). Once I saw that, a sudden respect arose within her on that family. Getting the order, once she returned, she couldn't stop herself from admiring that bold lady. After a few seconds of smile in her face, her eyes turned cloudy. Slowly tear drops patted her cheek.

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If I were that lady,it would be...it should be...

"Keerthi. Don't be so dull yaar. Cool. I have asked for early retirement na. Then what?..I'm going to be with you and our charan soon.Smile please. "It's not that Raghu. Okay leave it. Here is your smile.Now okay na?" Though I smiled for his sake, it's my thought about my birthday. Tomorrow, he didn't even want to be with me on this day. Then I myself pampered my heart saying 'I should be proud to be a soldier's wife rather than having feelings like a usual wife'. With all these encouraging
words I heeded the Nitradevi. OMG! what's this...it is just a candle light among the darkness. And there rose up my love's face. He caressed my face and holding it, he hummed the favorite lines of mine  :
"நிழல்  தரும்  இவள்  பார்வை 
வழி  எங்கும்  இனி  தேவை 
உயிரே  உயிரே  உயிர்  நீ  தான்  என்றால் 
உடனே  வருவாய்  உடல்  சாகும்  முன்னாள் ".[Song from movie "3"]
As the words reached my ears, the love I had for him took me to some other world, crossing the heaven. No words can explain this feel. When he sang the last line, I continued "அனல்  இன்றி  குளிர்  வீசும்  இது  எந்தன்  சிறை  வாசம் ".And we both sang the last line "இதில்  நீ  மட்டும்  வேண்டும்  பெண்ணே ".That moment..that moment is enough for me in my life. I lived to the fullest. 'Thank you Almighty! I don't know whose blessing had got me him as my life-partner.'
"Happy birthday keerthi!" He wished and waited for me to thank you. But I couldn't speak even
a word. And I didn't want to say it either. Charan switched on the light singing the birthday song and a gift which both of them has wrapped up with all love and care. It was a handmade photo-frame, inside it Raghu stood admiring me and the casual shot was taken in our trip in a ship.
After a silent talk, all of us slept. But me, there was some kind of unexplained feel in my heart and with that I tried to sleep.

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"Aunty...what's your name?" asked that little charan with his adorable smile.
With a smile, I asked"You want chocolates?"He nodded with a passion and after giving him some, she served coffee for the lady.
"Hi mam! here it is." She didn't feel like moving from there without conversing with the lady. "Mam. It's really a proud to talk to a soldier's wife. And please make sure that you come back here with your husband and kid once he returned from the border."

A plain smile was the reply. "His soul is always with me. So there's no need for you to wait till that. And if you want to see him then you have to wait forever." saying so, she had her sip. She gasped her breath.

Tears of emotion pooled in my eyes, pain of separation stirred her heart. No one spoke a word; dead silence crept upon the place.



The soldiers, for them life is no wonder hard to survive.
With little love, care, compassion and hope they live it forever.



                                                                                              Writing this, she closed her diary. 

Wednesday 10 June 2015

SIP - 2

The ding dong bell was striken and two faces-Mythili and Prathiv was seen. They were kind of regular visitors to U'Smile and kind of good friends to the Angel. Just a sight of them can make anyone envy their friendship. More than friendship anyone could find a intimacy between them. It is for sure that they can be the best couple ever, but they would not accept it anytime. They like each other though their character doesn't go in the same track. Neither of them want their relationship to be broken by explicitly showing their inner feelings for the other. And now, What a surprise!..No words between them. In addition to the burden of their back-packs, something is bothering them. Involuntarily the angel's legs reached their table.
"Hey dudes..Going somewhere?"
Just a glance and no reaction. I do wonder what breaking thing has happened between them. Since that was not the time to break the ice by her, she simply left the space for the buds.
But still she couldn't keep her dreaming and assuming capacity with herself, she proceeded.

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If I were Mythili,it would be...it should be...


"I told you right, we should have started earlier."
"What can I do? It's the traffic and not me. Why being a guy will I take time to get ready?"
I didn't actually want to pick up a fight while leaving. But there's no other way to make him talk. I know it's tough to overcome the fact that we are departing in our own ways. It was he who supported me in accepting the bitter truth. But what happened to him now? Why is he not uttering a word?.

It was like a dull day with no wind. Once getting into the train, With a quick look he asked me, "Want a water bottle?".
"No." because I don't want to lose these few moments.When he was about to get up from his seat, "உன்கிட்ட கொஞ்சம் பேசணும் . உக்காரு ".
He sat there. Tears rushed from my heart and I was blocking them at the brim of my eyes.

'I don't know actually how to put it in words, my feelings for you. The depth of how much care I want to take on you is like a mother feel for her child. The way you tease me is like the way a brother teases his sister. The way you spend time with me , is the way two friends spend time with each other. By all way, you have been my everything. But at times when I express my love to you, like the shore that pushes away the approaching waves you side stepped me. Its you who said that everyone will leave someday and not to get attached with anyone emotionally. And it's you who made it a default statement in my mind. But now I can't hold back that statement in my heart though my mind agrees it. And here is the voice of my heart Prathiv. I love you.'

The train announced its departure with the sound that made him to raise from his seat. "ஏதோ பேசணும்னு சொன்ன..ஆனா ஒண்ணுமே சொல்லல...".
The words couldn't step out of my mouth. Those words kept reverberating just inside my head. Oh God please help me to just shout those words. Why are you making me weak?.
The train started moving. He got down from the train. My mind was saying, "If you leave this moment, you can't get it back. Say it..say it...just say it...".
And he said it.."Bye Myti", with all the tears and love in his eyes he also said "I will miss you".

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It was myti's voice "Oye! We asked for a cappuccino."
The cafe girl placed the cups on the table. When Myti emptied the cup without speaking any word and took the tissue to wipe out the foam from her lips, she found it.. the words... "I'll miss you". Without controlling her heart anymore she poured out to him. "Why couldn't you just say it. Don't even have the guts to open your heart to me? to your myti?.. Okay then let it be me.. "I want you in my life as my love.That's it."
Saying so she read his eye which was already filled with tears, but this time it is because of some satisfaction. "Yes I will be there as you need...Love you myti..I do love you..".
Mythili cried out of happiness, an uncontrollable excitement, emotion, elation. Finally, the untold love has been said. After a  fifteen minutes of sharing their feel Prathiv asked her,"What made you to tell this now?".
"It's you who made me tell it. See", she showed him the tissue with the words. "Oh! What's this?"he asked.
"Oiii...don't act as if you don't know. You are the one who wrote it write."
"Noway I don't even have a pen."
Confused was the pair and the Angel went near them with the bill. "I think I have a pen here" said the cafe girl with a victorious smile in her face.




And that's what love is. It must be said.
                             Writing so, she closed her diary.

Sunday 7 June 2015

SIP - 1

All the giggles and chit-chats which are possessions of a usual college girl was gone. Alone and serene was she while entering the cafe. Megha, cuteness in her face seemed to be disappeared a few minutes ago. Must be a sight that might lowed her. Ordering the latte and letting the tear drops spoiling her rosy cheek, she took many deep breaths. The action did explain the reason for her blue feel. When a girl talks a lot she is hurted (which can be taken care of) but when she keeps quiet she is betrayed (which can't be altered).

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If I were Megha.... the scenario would be...should be...(the dream starts)

"'Am gona gift him this ring and ask him whether he will marry me?'. Why should I wait till he asks me? Someone has to take the relationship to the next stage, let that be me".This is what kept reverberating in her mind when she walks to him in the park.
"Hey Megha! how long will you make me wait here?"said Sidharth with a kind of control in his voice.
Am gona break the ice....Feel relaxed..He is your sidhu..pampering her heart beat, she kept walking towards him.
"Come on yaar...jaldhi...I have some other work too..what's the matter?".
Yeah here I come. Once I uttered the words he will be taken back and jump in madness.
"Hi sidhu!"
"Hmmm...சொல்லு  என்ன  விஷயம் ? [What's that you called me?]
எப்போ  வந்த ?[When did you reach here?]
வந்து  காலம்  ஆகுது ...சரி  சொல்லு  என்ன  விஷயம் ?[It's been years. Come on what's that?]
இதுக்கப்பறம்   நீ  freeya?[Are you free today?]
Mmmm...free தான் ..ஏன்  வேற  எங்கயும்  போகனுமா ?[Yah! You want to go somewhere?]
இல்ல  இல்ல  சும்மா  தான்  கேட்டேன் ..[Nopes! just asked]
சரி  சொல்லு  ஏதோ  முக்யமான  விஷயம்னு   சொன்ன ..கல்யாணம்  fix ஆகிடுச்சா ?
[Fine. You wana say something important right? Is it that you got engaged?]
chi chi..இல்ல ..[No]
ha ha...அப்பறம் ?[Then?]
நான்  முடிவு  பண்ணிட்டேன்  யார  கல்யாணம்  பண்ணனும்னு ..[It is that I decided whom I'm gona marry]
ohh...யார ?[Who's that?]
உன்னக்கு  நல்லாவே  தெரியும்  அவன .
[You know him quite well]
எனக்கா ...யாரு ?? யார  சொல்ற ?[I know him!..Who's that?]
அது ....[he is]
சொல்லு  Megha[Say it Megha]
சரி .....jeeva, உன்  friend.[Okay..It's your friend Jeeva.]
happa...நீ  என்ன சொல்லிடுவியோன்னு  நெனச்சேன் ..நல்ல  வேல ..[Oh..Thank God.I was afraid that you would mention my name.]
நானும்  உங்கிட்ட  ஒன்னு  சொல்லணும்  megs. உன்  friend shalini பத்தி  பேசணும்னு இருந்தேன் . [Even I got something to tell you. It's about your friend Shalini]
அவல  பத்தி  என்ன ?[What's it about her?]
இல்ல  am interested on her.Please help பண்ணு  d.[Actually am interested on her..Please help me in that yaar]
The letter from her hand fell and touched the ground with the ring. The ring, that could only match with his finger.
Without speaking any other word she left the place. This time her pace was faster than when she came.
He held the letter and it said,
"Dear Sidharth,
              I thought I would directly say my love. But how many times have you teased me?, How many times have you fought with me?. Thats why I decided to give you a shock first and then reveal my love. From the day when I realised your care for me,I started losing myself into you. And now I'm completely empty. That's why am here to ask you to give me yourself. So......

WILL YOU BE MY PARTNER IN EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE?"

With no words remaining, he stood there motionless. Glancing the ring and the letter that his dear friend has left him behind, smile peeped from his lips.

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"Excuse me! how much?" said another customer which took her back to her sense.
"Ohhh! sorry mam..It's 210."
Holding the Take away thing to the lady, she walked towards Megha.
Not sure about what Megha was facing, she said "Everything will be alright. You'll surely get if it's destined for you."and  threw a smile at her.
With a confused look, Megha kept staring at her.
Like a lightening from the sky,he entered into the cafe.
Surprised was she and Megha. He, Sidhu  stepped towards her and said,"Can't you wait and get my present? you irresponsible idiot."
The next moment Megha was having a letter that said the exact words of hers, but in his version.
"Yes Megha! I have fallen for you long back. It is destined."Saying so he took her hand. Slowly sliding the diamond ring into her finger, he asked those heavenly words,
"WILL YOU BE MY PARTNER IN EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE?"
There was complete silence in the cafe. All eyes on them, even the snow outside lowered its speed of fall and was waiting for her words.
As words may stumble she decided to shake her head and say her acceptance through her eye, her tears...YES.

Yes...I know if you are destined for anything you will get it. How hard it may be, how far it may be.

Still Megha couldn't understand how the cafe girl said those words suitable for her situation. They left the cafe with a unknown feel..undecipherable feel..

Ha ha...yes,I too don't know how the situation in my dream matched hers.


                                                                                              Writing so she closed her diary....

Prologue


The wind never stopped its drive. With the trees and the hard roads covering with the caramel creamy snow, the icy climate retained in the 6th street of the beautiful city. Every time the door of the cafe "U-SMILE" gets opened the chime of the bell, hanging above it, shows its presence. Like a dreamy child who looks upon fantasy world, she makes her own lifestyle a world with happiness. Simple but elegant is she, the cafe girl. With not brown-long-curly but not black-short-straight, not less than 5.4 and not more than 5.7, fair and fifty Kg. Spreading her smile throughout the customers, she impress them with her service. With the sugar cubes served to them, they enjoy the candied words of her.She's not a beauty to all, for those who pour out and gets a shoulder from her to lie on will surely name her "The Angel", as she is one such. She was as happy as a three year old on Christmas morning welcoming everyone.She has this peculiar habit of imagining herself as the character whom she sees in her cafe and developing her own situation of that person as a day-dreamer. Her diary-the only companion she could rely on gets her focus every other night. She imprints her words about the day's story that she created. These are the flips of those pages...

Hi Friends,

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     Rather analyzing the add-ons,

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